Feeling Ho-Hum!

Oh I started this blog with such high hopes for brilliant daily posts, and I have to admit that I've sort of lost my way with it because lately my thoughts are not brilliant or bright or even slightly shiny, and I just write something to write it and get it over with. Unless it is a book review. And there are a few posts that I'm pretty proud of because they are insightful and well written. Like the one about being my brother's keeper.

But most days, again most days...lately, I feel really uninspired, and I question carrying on with it because even I don't care what I'm writing about. I'm just writing anything at all to get the task over with.

And tonight I've been staring at a blank screen for over two hours trying to think about what I would write. I've surfed other blogs, even, trying to get some idea of what I should say. I feel like nothing ever happens in my life and so I do not know what to write or say, and besides, I am really the ONLY person who reads this. And then I feel like there are things I want to say but they are too personal, and I really don't want to share them here. Things deep down inside that I am feeling lately about the direction of my life because while I've said stuff about it, I haven't really said stuff about it. Not the things I think in the darkest of moments, and today I've been having one of those darkest of moments days, and it really is days like this that I do NOT want to write for feel I'll share things I do not want to share.

But on the other hand, I am getting close to two months left and then it will be a full year, and then it will be over. At least the every day part will be over, and then I think I will change it into a blog just about books and writing, and I'll stop forcing myself to blog daily. I'll just use it to post book critiques and maybe the occasional post about writing.

Anyway...I do want to say enough is enough because clearly I've created a habit out of this. I don't know. Maybe my grumpy mood hasn't quite abandoned me yet, and I'm feeling a little ho-hum about life, you guys. And do you ever feel a little ho-hum about life?