Oh New York...

I went to see The Adjustment Bureau, and anyone who knows me knows why. Because it stars my fave - Matty Damon...sigh. He's so dreamy. In that boy next door kind of way. And I really go for that. The movie was entertaining enough, if kind of (super) hokie-ish. But it did get me thinking. And no, not about fate and free will. I mean, we all think about that sometimes, and maybe someday I'll offer up my thoughts on the subject.

In the mean time, let's focus. On New York. That is what the movie got me thinking about. I've missed that city a lot lately. It started at Christmas. I just really like the way New York feels at Christmas time. And then I made that faves list and raved about the getting lost in the snow storm and Yankees Stadium. As my niece Cora said, "My heart has been longing." After watching the movie and seeing scenes from all over the city, I feel nostalgic and sad.

A girl never knows her path in life, how things will turn out. When I came to TXas, I was certain it was a good idea. I still think it is a good thing to be here. But I can't stop thinking about New York. I've moved a lot. And when I move, I really go for it. Utah to Virginia to Nevada to New Jersey to Texas. WOW! That is quite a list.

I remember the first time I came to New York. I was nineteen. It was quite the experience...I'll never forget it. Everything seemed so fast and crazy, and I can admit that I was a little afraid. I thought to myself that it was a place I could never live. Boston and D.C. were also on the agenda for that trip, and I could totally see myself either place. They are big cities, but nothing is like NYC for sheer chaos. Still, I thought New York was great, and I was glad I got to see it. But that place. It has this way of getting under your skin and growing on you. It's beautiful and fascinating and scary and even at times hideous.

I'm not saying I'm moving to New York City. I'm not saying that I'm not. I'm just saying that I miss it. And it's sort of starting to freak me out.