I think I might be crazy. So I've decided to do another sugar fast to start the year. That isn't the crazy part. The crazy part is the amount of sugar I took in today. I'm starting it tomorrow, and I felt like I had to get in every ounce I possibly could, and wow. I really cannot figure it out. It's like I think I'm going into the desert and have to store up as much water/food in my system because once I'm in that desert...boy it's going to be seriously hard to find food.
I just wish I wouldn't do that to myself because it doesn't help me get healthier, and then I end up regretting it since I'm probably just making myself more addicted to the crap that I'm eating. And yet I do it. It's like the storm of food before I try to take it easy on the sugar. I'm not looking forward to the cravings tomorrow.
But this year is the year that I'm determined to put this all behind me. I want this to be the year that I stop feeling so horrible about my body. I want this year to be filled with a lot of changes. A big part of that change needs to be feeling better about myself, inside and out. I have some serious issues with my self confidence. Serious. I'm just ready for change, and part of it means a sugar fast. Mostly, I think I need to strike a balance, and to do that, I need to curb the cravings, and the only way to do that is to cut back. Way back.
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