That's just because I was thinking about how I didn't know what I wanted to write tonight. And then I asked myself if it was Thursday. And that it is. It is indeed Thursday. So here is my random list.
1. I feel anxious when I try to control things that I can't control. I suppose I am noticing that today because today I felt better when I was applying for a job and working on my book. But when I started to contemplate things I can't control. Well, it makes me angsty. I don't like it! That and it is sort of killing my creative vibe that I had going.
2. I really missed my two best friends from law school this week. They took a trip to Napa Valley. Brie posted a really cute picture of her and Misha there. It just made me realize how great they are and how good it was to have such kind friends during one of the most grueling times of my life.
3. It is easy to dismiss other people's opinions. I need to be more careful about that. I think I want to be heard, and quite often, I am certain I am right. But that was something that made me crazy in law school. People took such extreme positions and refused to see middle ground. It's frustrating when you feel ignored. I need to be more careful about that.
4. Tonight at book club we talked about teaching. Specifically about parents and teaching. I met a lot of great parents as a teacher. I met a few that were difficult. Anyway, the discussion made me sort of miss my old job. It's easy to romanticize it. Now that it is long over and done.
5. Sometimes, even when I cannot imagine how things in my life will possibly work out, I get this feeling of peace that comes over me. I know in that moment that everything will be okay. It's happened a few times this week. Those are the moments that I try to hold onto.
The end.
P.S. If I were evaluating this post, and I am because it's my blog and that is what I do, I would not love it. But I killed my creative juices by letting myself get to worrying. So the reason I'm writing this post script is to remind myself that next time I get worked up over political garbage, I might also lose my creativity. Not really worth it. Just saying self. So calm down!
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