Halfway There

So I'm halfway to the goal. 182.5 posts would be the exact marker. So now I'm past the exact marker. I have to say that I'm pretty impressed with myself for sticking to it for this long. And it has sort of become a little habit of mine. Six months of writing daily for the blog. Not too shabby.

In other news. Still sort of reeling. From more than just the moving and whatnot. I have a few more friends getting divorced. And well, it has me thinking. Marriage does not equate perfection. I'm not about to bash marriage, mind you. I still want it. Want it bad. Want it more than anything.

But I'm thirty-five, and I guess this is the age where things start happening in life. And all those happily ever afters when you were twenty-five, well, they're different. That isn't to say that I think marriage can't be happy. And it isn't to say that all my friends who were married in their twenties are bound for a divorce. I do not believe that in any way. I guess that is why I always feel such shock when I hear about my friends and divorce in the same sentence. I just don't live in expectation of that.

The take away for me is this. There will not come a time when I don't have to work at life. Sometimes I think... in my delusions... that once I am married, then I won't have to ever worry about anything. I know, of course, that it's not true. But the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side, and I am sure that I have friends who would say that I got lucky being single all this time. I would tend to differ on that matter, but...BUT!!! My life is good. And I am healthy and I have lots of friends and a great family. I have so much support. I have a great education. I've traveled a lot. I know that mine is a good life. Sometimes life is good and sometimes it is bad. And that may or may not have something to do with being married or single.

But then I discovered something else. I was checking out a friend's FB page because he's posted all his wedding pictures from seven years ago. And I like FB stalking people. And what a cute family he has. He lives in a nice, modest home. His wife is beautiful. He's out and about serving his community. People say super nice things about him. And he deserves it because he is super nice. So that is the good side of life and marriage. That is the side I hope for.

But in the mean time, I think the key is to see the good and strive for better. I may not have everything I want. But I believe that the Lord can make my life beautiful if I let Him, regardless of being single or jobless or whatever else. If I want to be happy, I can find ways to be happy. There is nothing that keeps me from God but me. There is nothing that keeps me from having more love in my life but me. I want more of God's love in my life. I do believe I can have that in all it's glorious forms. Married...or single. Single...or married.