There is this. I'm grateful for girls. You know, I'm not one of those girls who doesn't get along with others of my gender. And while I would gladly opt for more friends of the male variety, I also think that female friends are necessary. So I went out with some of my sister-in-law's friends tonight. And they were super nice. And now I have some new friends.
Bonus...they really made me feel good! They were shocked that I wasn't married. You see, sometimes I get so used to being single. And it stops being a novelty to me. Well, that actually stopped a long time ago. But anyways, I also wonder what people think when they see me all thirty-five and single and what not. Do they think I am a social pariah for some oddity that I possess...like an extra toe, or halitosis, or a hidden goiter. (Can goiters be hidden? I don't even really know what a goiter is, if I'm being perfectly honest. Which I am, by the by.)
Turns out not all people think that I am hiding something from the world. They are just surprised, that's all. And that made me feel good. Because, well, I think I'm surprisingly normal. But what do I know about that anymore? It's super hard to see myself the way others see me. What with me being me and all. And for so long and what have you. I mean really, I have been inhabiting this skin for thirty-five years, so I've got first-hand experience with me.
Anyway, I am normal enough. And not being married isn't necessarily any sort of reflection on me. Although I have thought that many times. So it's just nice to get validation and regrets. It's nice to have others that will commiserate with you when you are struggling with a particle hardship, be that hardship what-some-ever it may. (Aside - some days I do wish I was born in 1868 and could say what-some-ever and other such phrases to my little heart's content. All days I am super grateful for indoor plumbing and air conditioning. Carry on.)
Here is the rub with this life thing and all that. You really can't go about breathing and such without some of life getting on you. And sometimes you don't want some things getting on you. But you don't always get to pick and choose because life, it isn't always so much of a buffet experience. It's sort of a take what you get and work with it experience. You get some raw ingredients that you've got to make something with. And even at that, you don't really get to choose the raw ingredients. You get what you get and you don't throw a fit! Or you do throw a fit...only to find out that you can do that until the cows come home, but not one thing is going to change your circumstances so there isn't really a point in carrying on like that.
But the really wonderful blessing about life is this: all things ebb and all things flow. So for a season, you are suffering, and for a season, you are at peace. For a season you seek answers, and for a season, answers are given freely. Life gives you all sorts of raw materials in different seasons so that you have plenty of opportunity to make something new and different. Nothing ever stays the same forever. And that is beautiful.
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