Gave It Up

So I used to watch the Bachelor/Bachelorette. Some seasons more faithfully than others. And then that whole Jake Pavelka thing happened and I sort of thought to myself, "What the what? Why do I watch this show? I actually find it morally repugnant." Because I do.

And yet it is like a train wreck that you cannot pull your eyes from and once you are in, you are in. I thought it was especially fascinating to watch twenty-some-odd women or twenty-some-odd men throw themselves into the game...the way they would treat one another, the comments behind others' backs, the preening and strutting and dramatics. It's pretty interesting the way we humans can behave, I tell you. And it becomes all about "the win." Like if this person chooses you, then you can sigh and say, "Oh, I'm pretty/handsome. Oh, I'm worth while or valuable...or..."WHATEVER!

It's no mystery why the relationships rarely work. I mean, who wouldn't fall in love with an attractive person who just whisked you away on a helicopter ride or a trip to the Bahamas? And really life isn't like that, as we are all so very aware. The magic wears off and you're right back where you started.

What I wonder is do these bachelors or bachelorettes actually watch the show and yet go on anyway, believing it will all work out in the end? Really? I just don't get it.

Anyway, so I stopped watching because, well, I just don't believe that we should ever, under any circumstances, treat other people that way. All of if. Shouldn't happen. And then I heard rumors about another Mormon on the show. So I did a little look-e-loo. Just to see what was up since people who I know either know him or his ex-wife. And man, that was some seriously sociopathic (word? ah who cares) behavior. As in, the world exists only for my pleasure and I really don't even understand how others get upset. Only I can get upset because only I have feelings. Everyone else is just here for my purposes. You know, that sort of behavior.

Of course...I found my skin crawling. I was getting sort of upset and what not, and thinking, "How dare he?" And, "What a jerk!" And, "I'd give him a piece of my mind!"

And then it all made sense. That is why I stopped watching. That's the kind of person who wants to be on The Bachelor or The Bachelorette. And so I will not watch them or invest any kind of emotional energy since it ridiculousness anyway. And a waste. And most especially, it has nothing what-so-ever to do with my life.